zoom! ... and open heart surgery

the month of january deserves that title. in all honesty, it seemed to take forever while living it, but looking back i have no idea where it went. weird how that happens. this month had its ups and downs. i started this month in alberta with friends, always a good start. i got a boyfriend. 2 weeks later i no longer had said boyfriend. i learned a lot about myself through that experience. i also learned a lot about God. i had some fun times with the kids at school (see last post). i traveled to edmonton to experience break forth 2008. it was a good weekend overall. it seemed like God wasn't doing as much in my heart as usual, then sunday happened.

i had open heart surgery on sunday. this is the vision that was told to me by a friend. God was sewing up my heart with a needle and thread. he placed my heart back in my body and watched it beat for a little while. he shook his head, thinking no, this is not quite right. he removed my heart from me, removed his own heart, and proceeded to place his own heart in me. with that he smiled and thought it was how it should be, just right. i then asked about walls. you see, i like walls. they protect me. i am good at hiding behind them. apparently they were around my original heart, but when i received God's they were gone. i have some thoughts of what this all means, but i am open to interpretation if anyone has ideas.

reflections of an adventure

today i took some students to journey's church in saskatoon. it was a fun and successful adventure. i had 10 students, a big van, and 2 moose that tried to play tag with us on our trip up to the city. i did a good job of avoiding them (i guess i wasn't in a particularly playful mood at the time). lunch also proved to be an adventure as no one wanted to decide where to eat and we ended up getting in and out of the van, and in and out of multiple places before deciding on the option of eating at a food court. crazy kids! (for the record, i never want to have that many children!)


i find it interesting to bring past and present parts of my life together at times and take a step back to see where i have come from and where i am going. today was one of those times. i was at the church that my youth pastor started, talking to his wife, remembering youth events and thinking that youth leaders seemed so old when i was in grades 8-12. i looked around, saw my kids and thought, hey, i am those youth leaders. i have become the people that i looked up to when i was in high school. it was an awe inspiring, God moment. watching my kids light candles and pray, reflect and experience their own God moments was so beautiful. it was very encouraging and exciting to see God's faithfulness and guidance through the past few years of my life, to see what i have been through and how it has brought me to the place that i am so blessed to be at right here, right now.