Bald For Jesus

Hello friends. I have set out on an adventure. This adventure is to seek and discover my true inner beauty and self worth. As you know, my good friend Jen got diagnosed with Lukemia in december. I told her that I would shave my head for her if it would help her to handle her own baldness. She is doing just fine with her lack of hair, and I was very happy to hear this. I had begun to doubt whether I would be able to go through with shaving my head for her or not. God used this to convict me in a strong way. He asked me what I was scared of and why it was such a big deal. I realized that I was getting a lot of my self worth and sense of beauty from my hair, as many girls do in our culture. If we have a bad hair day, we feel gross, a good hair day, we feel pretty. God told me that he saw my beauty deeper than my hair. He saw it from my heart and told me that I was beautiful because he loved me. He wanted me to see that too, to know that my beauty comes from Him, from deep within my heart. "Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight." -1 Peter 3:3-4 So, He told me that I had to shave my head, Jen being fine and all. I was terrified and argued with God all weekend. But, I am the winner of a game called "I lose", and basically I lose. So, God won and I lost... all of my hair. I am feeling really good though. I am excited for this journey and for what God has in store for me. I don't feel ugly like I thought I would. I was very scared that I would look like a boy and not be pretty anymore, but God has shown me otherwise. I am excited for this to be a testimony of my faith and that this adventure can speak to many people in many ways. I am excited to see God use this experience to show himself to me and for our love to grow deeper and truer than ever before. I knew that God loved me but I didn't know in my heart God's love for me, and this is what I am getting to experience now.