lcbi

hello hello from outlook, saskatchewan. here i am ready to embark on this grand adventure commonly known as an internship. i began training yesterday and all seems fine and good. not gonna lie, videos are boring. especially when you have been playing with kids for the past 8 week. and are used to working from about 9-12. now i work from 8-4, at least for training, and i have to sit still and pay attention and listen to a guy on a video, who has good points, but really bad shirts. haha. the staff, the ones i have met anyways, seem nice. we have a retreat on the weekend to meet the others and bond a little. i will also meet my room mate, an intern from millar, on the weekend. i am hoping that she is nice and that we will get along. other than that, not too much going on here. i have made an extensive list of the things that maybe i should have actually thought about bringing on my first trip down here. i have had some much needed alone time, and some space to just breathe. tonight i think a run is in order.

rant

do you know how hard it is to say good-bye to your old life and try to get ready for your new one while not physically being in either place? very hard! it is frustrating to try and figure life out, to move out of a life you've been living in for 3 years in one weekend, to go back to a team of crazy girls and teach VBS once again on monday morning. p.s. the crazy girls are amazing and not the problem. it is frustrating to know that you are in one place for a week, and then another a week later, and then all of a sudden, the summer is gone. your new life is fast approaching and you realize that you have to move, once again, in just over a week. and this move is not just to another billet home, but to your new life that you know very little about. then, as you are trying to digest all of these thoughts, an email fills your screen and a new wave of frustration hits. not only are you reminded that in a week you will be starting life as an intern dean of girls, playing mommy to a bunch of high school students for a year, but now you get the joys of living right in there with them! woot! you were thinking that it would be hard enough living in a dorm apartment, somewhat sharing the living space of the dorms with the students, but having your own bathroom and some living space of your own. this email tells you that instead you will be living in a dorm room with the other intern (one room separated by a door, so like 2 little rooms). this means that you will share a bathroom and your whole year and life and probably alone time and supposed "days off" with the students. how does one remove themselves enough to be looked upon as one in an authoritative position when they are right in there with the students? how does one remove themselves enough to have a break and stay sane? how does one attempt to not burn out before christmas when there is no escaping the life and times on grade 10-12 girls? i guess this is where god comes in and shows yet another facet of his already amazing being. i guess this is where i will one day eat my words due to god's amazing provision and superior planning and ability to see the whole picture. i guess this is where god will bring me back and make me see that i have little faith and have need to trust him always. i suppose this is one of those times that i will learn something. i am not actually sure if this entry makes any sense, nor do I know if anyone still reads this blog with how often I actually post. I just had to rant about the frustrations of living out of a bag and attempting to wrap my mind around the transition back into dorm life in a week. later!